New Year's Solutions

I've always had the understanding that most people have themselves figured out. They know who they are, they know what they want from life and they know how to get it. Sometimes I feel like I missed the convention on "How to Get Through Life Happily and in One Piece". The longer I work in customer service, though, the more I start to think I'm not the only one.

Even in a short 27 years, life has taught me valuable lessons about myself and others. Your family, knowingly or not, helps shape who you will become...for better or worse. Friends teach you to love yourself. Strangers have the ability to show you how to act in public, and in some cases how NOT to act. Environmental factors such as home life, school, extracurricular activities, etc. also have a hand in helping you become you. It stupefies me to think of how many things, how many people factor in on the equation that equals me.

We all have things we don't like about ourselves. I'm not just talking appearances here. What I'm referring to is personality and self-esteem. For instance, I know that I can be...let's just say "bossy". I don't think I'm Queen of the World or anything. I just know that...sometimes...I can be a bit...bossy. My guess as to why I have this character trait is my fear of not being in control. I would also say that I'm at times moody. There are many factors that play into this trait: #1: I don't deal with stress well...sometimes at all, #2: Fear of failing, #3: Hunger, #4: I'm tired, and #5: I'm a Scorpio who happens to be of Irish ancestry. Okay, so the first two are obviously serious, but if you know me at all you know that all five play a part. I'm also stubborn, but that bothers you more than it bothers me ;)

The two aforementioned traits are things about myself I am willing to change because it will make me a happier person. I must learn to let others have control sometimes and I must learn to talk about my feelings instead of burying them. This is one of my New Year's "Solutions" (Solutions to a happy life). It will probably take longer than I anticipate. No one is perfect.

I feel though that this is my life. No matter the past, I owe it to myself to break cycles and find happiness in whatever it is that I do. You can only live life for yourself.

"Set peace of mind as your highest goal, and organize your life around it." - Brian Tracy